Incomplete & Insecure

The more I write, the more I realize how awful I am at writing.

I’ve been reading the Bible. I’m currently in the middle of Exodus. The exodus has already occurred.

As I read through the ten plagues, and Moses’ words from God to Pharaoh, and Pharaoh’s response to Moses’ words from God I started to ask myself “Where is God, and why has he chosen to be so distant?”

Unlike Moses, I was desperate for an answer to this question. I wanted to know why God was so distant while in the process of delivering his people from a land he had promised to deliver them from 430 years ago, and also why he was so distant in my own life.

I have been on my knees. I have been crying and begging. I have been asking and telling. I have been yelling and whispering. I have been confessing and forgiving. I have been waiting and waiting. Why is God not answering me? Why is God not giving me what I want?

Moses was not questioning God in the midst of flies, frogs, hail and darkness because he had already heard from God. He had already asked him why. And the LORD answered.

Moses and Aaron went in to see Pharaoh for the first time. They had spoken the words and done the signs and the LORD’s people had believed. But they go in and tell Pharaoh “Thus says the LORD, the God of Israel, ‘Let my people go, that they may hold a feast to me in the wilderness,'” and Pharaoh says no. In short. And then makes the work even harder for the people of Israel. They were unhappy.

And Moses says “O Lord, why have you done evil to this people? Why did you ever send me? For since I came to Pharaoh to speak in your name, he has done evil to this people, and you have not delivered your people at all.”

And God speaks.

He says “I am the LORD.”

He says “I have heard the groaning of the people of Israel…and I have remembered my covenant.”

Note: Just stop and read Exodus 4, 5 & 6.

Because God says go in and talk to Pharaoh again. And Moses says but…

And God says that he will deliver his people. And after gnats, and locusts, and boils, and death God delivers his people.

So the question I ought to be asking is not “where is God, and why has he chosen to be so distant?” but rather “what is God doing right now, and why have I not been listening to him?”

Because whether or not I am serving and honoring the Lord in the fall of 2010 is not important. Not right now. What matters is whether or not I am glorifying God in the things I am doing today.

Obedience doesn’t get me what I want. UNLESS I want to get closer to God.

Then, and really only then, obedience gets me exactly what I want.

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1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Joe Doust
    Apr 28, 2010 @ 08:01:19

    nailed it…

    Reply

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