Just got back from my class.

It was the first day.

I was SO nervous.

So I said a prayer, calmed down, read a verse, and put myself aside for a little while.

I guess you could say I’m learning a lot about what it means to have faith.

The people God has put into my life, the Sells and the Millers and my parents, are very gently reminding me that this isn’t really about me.

So I have a choice.

I can

1. Think about myself, my needs, my wants, my desires, my friends, my language, my culture, my family, the things that I miss…like my family.

2. TRUST. That God is in control. That God has a plan. That everything is, yes really, going to be ok. That He knows what He’s doing. That all things will work together, and in the end I will be able to look back and cry. Not because it was a bad experience, but because that’s what I do when I remember the mighty things that the LORD has done. He’s kept me safe thus far. And he’s gotten me home many many times before. He will get me home again this time. He will pull through. And yes, it may very well be at the last second. It may not happen until I cannot take it anymore. But I have to understand that those times of sadness, and times of homesickness, and times when things just seem too hard, are there for a reason.

I survived today, and I will continue to survive.

Tomorrow afternoon it will be exactly one week since I arrived here, and my how time flies.

I can do this.

All that I REALLY need is HIM!

I want more of Him.


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