I’ve tried to stay away from posting videos because I feel as if it’s not what this blog is about. However, this video not only completely goes along with what I’ve tried to make this blog about, but it also goes along with what I am currently trying to make my life about.
There is something that happens in my heart when I see pictures or hear stories from journeys people have taken around the world. After this longing in my heart expressed itself about a hundred times I realized that God must have placed this desire on my heart. It was originally His desire to share the Gospel with students in the Canary Islands. Yes, I may be learning Spanish while I’m there, and yes, I may be living in 72 degree weather in December, but the real reason why I want to go there and live there for three months is because my heart longs to be somewhere other than here. It longs to serve people and love people other than the people who are here. And those desires, I believe, were placed on my heart.
Dr. John Piper can explain the root of this desire much better than I can.
There’s this line in Elizabethtown where Kirsten Dunst’s character says to Orlando Bloom’s character “you’re always trying to break up with me and we’re not even together.” The best part is that Orlando Bloom’s character responds with “we’re not?”
I would like to say that I’m not actually as care free as I think I am, but that would be a lie. I think I’m actually more care free than I let on. I’ve just been in one place for too long.
There are a few friendships of mine that I believe would not change at all if we were to spend every day together.
I enjoy being ignored sometimes.
I think Sufjan Stevens is next on the “To See in Concert” list.
I have yet to attend a wedding at which I have not been uncomfortable.
It’s often hard for me to find a song on my iPod that has no connection to a person or event.
“Given the chance I’m gonna be somebody.” -Kings of Leon
I don’t want to wait for the chance. I’m not going to wait for the chance.
In the movie Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid Robert Redford reminds me of Brad Pitt.
I have no doubt that my selfishness will never fail to reveal itself.
One of my goals is to send more postcards to the ones I love.
I think a lot of times when people choose to go without things it’s because they’re trying to find something better. I’m learning that I choose to go without things because there is something better, and going without is was usually brings me to it. I’m leaving the country in just over 4 months, and many of my emotions are stirred up at the thought of being without for so long. Without home. Without friends. Without english. Without Fort Wayne weather. Without expectations. Without my own vehicle. Without the familiarity that comes from 18 years in the same place. I’m ready. I’m ready for the challenge that comes from being without. And not because I’m ready for the challenge, but because I’m ready for the place to where the challenge leads. I’m ready for that. I’ve been ready for that. I’ve had to wait for longer than I would have liked to wait, but I’m ready now. That’s all that matters. There is this place in my heart that already feels the weight of the challenge, but at the same time remembers the deep breath that comes when the challenge has been completed.
Honestly, I try and avoid movies with scary looking monsters. Not because I’ll have nightmares about them chasing me, but because I won’t be able to fall asleep because I’ll be convinced I saw one in my hallway. I’ve learned to shut my door at night. Anyway, when I think about living with a heart that doesn’t have the humility to ask for forgiveness and to forgive others and to believe in their heart that God has forgiven them, I get this picture in my mind of some sort of scary monster following me around everywhere I go. Well, that’s what my life has been like for the past few months. It got so bad that I could not help but become bitter towards people that I had once loved. People that I had once shared my heart with.
Forgiveness is this great love story that too many people miss out on.
It’s one of the things I would like to see happen more often in my life.
